Idk how to describe it.
But like, I was scrolling yt and saw something about my little pony pop up and it made me realize that i would’ve loved mlp so much as a kid. I even remember in kindergarten when I was trying to play with mlp dolls and another kid came up to me and said “those are for girls.” [I’m not like blaming him for everything, it’s just struck me how long I’ve had that memory for]. I was always really insecure about watching “girl” shows and movies for so long that I actively felt uncomfortable when they were on.
Or just playing with dolls in general. I did like playing with cars and stuff as a kid but I think i would have really liked dolls too.
But like…I cant really do those now. At least not in the same way, yknow? I’m an adult and watching mlp is…not exactly mentally stimulating. At least that’s my impression.
I watched MLPFIM when I was a teenager and I really enjoyed it, I’m not trans though. I think that for a kid’s show it’s pretty cool, it plays with interesting mythology which isn’t based around LOTR which means a lot to be honest since basically everything is based around that. It’s not the best thing in the world but I’d recommend it, lol. Maybe I’m not the best person to talk about this but this feeling is just part of existing, I’ve also lost things I’ve coulda done as a kid because… I was poor. It’s just hard not to live in our ghosts, but also there’s isn’t much to be gained from it.