Hi, I just joined lemmygrad! I’ve been lurking here for a while. About me uhhhh… I really like music, anime, and talking to people in general.

Also, the big reason I wanted to make an account today is because I wanted to recommend some books by Suniti Kumar Ghosh that I’ve been reading and really enjoying recently. I highly recommend “Naxalbari: Before and After” and “The Tragic Partition of Bengal”, where you can learn things like how Gandhi was actually fascist and Gandhi’s “non-violence” movement was actually a tool used by the British imperialists (and India’s comprador bourgeoisie) to quell the rising anti-imperialist forces. (Suspiciously, Gandhi always seemed to be fine with violence whenever it was the imperialists doing it…)

One of my favorite parts about Ghosh is that they use so many quotes by members of the ruling class where the ruling class admits to their plans. It’s literally evil villain reveals evil plan so it’s basically irrefutable. Like Ghosh includes a quote by A. O. Hume literally explaining that the founding of the Indian National Congress was designed to “inoculate them [“the great lower middle classes”] with a mild and harmless form of political fever”… and there’s so many quotes like this in the book from British officials and their puppets that make it blatantly clear how Indian “independence” in 1947 didn’t liberate India at all.)

Anyways, my fangirling about Ghosh’s works aside, I’m excited to be here and to get to know you all!! :)

  • rugarc [she/her]@lemmygrad.mlOP
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    17 天前

    Yeah, I also live in America it’s really bad… and thinking about all of the complicity of working in any American company is really rough. I’m curious, are there other kinds of companies you’d be fine working at? Personally my plan is to continue with a research/academic route, so that’s also an option (although within academics there’s a lot of suspicious ties with defense and Israel and stuff so it’s rough to even find something fulfilling in academia)

    • LeninZedong@lemmygrad.ml
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      17 天前

      Neh I have nothing (college was too much for my mental health), though I would like to work in a factory (it is simple, though it requires hard work) in an assembly line or something… maybe I am ignorant but I really cannot imagine trying to go to college again. Maybe some local place (which would not have Israel’s reach due to cost to enter that market) would be good.

      • rugarc [she/her]@lemmygrad.mlOP
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        17 天前

        Yeah, the pressures of college are horrible when dealing with mental health issues that make deadlines super stressful (like I feel like college just doesn’t give people space to take days off (much less hours off) and really confront their struggles and direction in life, it’s just a constant stream of work and other pressures)

        The factory work/local work is a cool choice! one of my friends was talking about doing something like that as well and I’ve definitely had that option in mind as well

          • rugarc [she/her]@lemmygrad.mlOP
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            17 天前

            Unfortunately I’m too young (college-age) to feel confident giving you any long-term advice… although actually I read your post earlier about direction in life, in which I saw you mentioned OCD, which I also suffer from, and we might even have the same theme based on your description. so if you feel comfortable talking about that/have anything you want to talk with me regarding that I can say my thoughts on it, don’t feel pressured at all to talk about it though (I didn’t bring it up earlier since I was worried as to whether you’d want to talk about it or not)

            But yeah, I’m also in the process of thinking about my life trajectory so I hesitate to really give advice on that front, since I think my thoughts on life goals might drastically change as the next few years go on (depending on how things go in America as well)

              • rugarc [she/her]@lemmygrad.mlOP
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                17 天前

                Absolutely, I guess the first thing I’d ask is, is there anything specific about it that you’d want to talk about? Also, have you looked into ERP (exposure and response prevention)?

                In either case, maybe some of the following is relatable: assuming we have the same theme, I think one smaller compulsion I had was looking away from the TV/computer/phone whenever an advertisement or show or something had the target of the theme. So one thing that my therapist told me to do at the time was to resist the compulsion to turn my head away. Other (more difficult to tackle) compulsions included me moving really far away from said type of person (off my natural walking trajectory). I try to continue to walk in the direction I was walking as much as possible to counter this. I’m not completely out of the woods yet with this theme, but I think tackling many of my compulsions like this and other examples helped a bit.

                • LeninZedong@lemmygrad.ml
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                  17 天前

                  Mmm, exposure therapy does sound like the right move, but it just seems very difficult to expose myself without causing great traumatic experiences.

                  Anything specific? Mmm, you said that living situation advice was out of your purview, but that is kind of the main thing I am concerned about (I have been damned because I live in a pocket between more populated areas, yet where I am has far less resources than a city would have. I should probably get a cab or something to a city (because I cannot drive anymore).

                  • rugarc [she/her]@lemmygrad.mlOP
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                    17 天前

                    Yeah it’s really unfortunate that exposure therapy requires risking the resulting intense (potentially traumatic) discomfort…

                    Ahh I see. Yeah going to a city seems like it’d definitely give you more opportunity/flexibility to change your current situation, definitely seems like a reasonable option to consider