Lots of Clarion, Midrift and Select All lately. I’ve been really into chic-punk banks since I went to that Julie show.

Met a local she/they that’s really into music production. It’s been a minute since i messaged them, but I always get super nervous about that kind of thing because i don’t want them getting the wrong “message” when I hit them up looking for genuine friendship instead of being perceived as another grody dude.

I’m glad I have a really chill woman in my life. She’s really understanding and even appreciative that in most of my life, I’ve made more friends with women than I have ever did with men. I’m grateful it doesn’t put any strain on our relationship and she fully trusts me. That helps with the anxiety I mentioned earlier. I don’t put my heart into anyone else.

It’s also a bit of a struggle because I’ve made a lot of really cool friends; goth chicks or punk-rockers that I had an amazing friendship with that ends when they admit they have feelings for me or they suddenly end it with no reasoning why. (think it’s because I’ve been told I’m “amorous” many times). Shit like that makes me glad I"m not single anymore. Too many beautiful women with crazy colors and some sad, depressing mental afflictions. Same reason I stopped dating alt-dudes; they’re worse!

Sometimes I wonder what it really would have been like to date or make friends in the 80s-90s alt scenes. Totally different times, man.

I am a little hesitant to post that part as it sounds a bit…reactionary, but it does come from objective and personal experience; I don’t think it applies everywhere!