Annoying and painful. Too much to go into, but basically, my muscles seem to have a vendetta against me.

Also, I think my psych meds aren’t working right anymore. I’m beginning to experience anxieties that I haven’t had for well over a decade. Something’s off. Need to figure that shit out.

Otherwise, all is good, I guess. I think I’ve come to also realize why metal calms me the fuck down. Like, for a lot of people it’s energetic, but it brings me peace.

Didn’t really know why until I posted that Power Rangers theme on here yesterday. Went and listened to a few cartoon themes from the stuff I watched when I first fell in love with TV and especially animation. Half of them are straight up fucking metal. SWAT Kats (which had two equally badass themes), Biker Mice From Mars, etc.

I would rent SWAT Kats and Power Rangers on VHS as if they were fucking core foods I couldn’t survive without.

I think that’s why it brings me comfort. Psychologically, it’s kind of the first music genre I have associated with enjoyable experiences.