I was always very anxious person and this anxiety really helped me to motivate myself to do anything. I would procrastinate, wait for anxiety to kick in and panicking do the thing in 1/10 of time. However after this cbd thing the anxiety no longer kicks in lmao. It is gone for real, I can’t even evoke it if I wanted. And so my career/education took a huge hit.

At first I thought this effect was because of slight amounts of THC “making me lazy”. I imagined that I got a bit addicted to it over the year of everyday full spectrum cbd usage and I got stereotypical “bum” mentality from “weed” 😅

My next step as soon as I noticed that I no longer have drive and motivation and ambition? was to just come clean off it and I did it single day, was a bit irritable and angry for a week but generally not a big deal.

So now I am months after that and I realize that there is more to this. That this anxiety that cbd killed was actually part of my coping with adhd. I mean how else explain that months after quitting I still haven’t regained my “motivation” to finish something before deadline? The anxiety just doesn’t kick in, it is gone.

Idk honestly I must find some other way because I am almost 30 and that also is some sort of deadline hopefully the anxiety kicks at birthday.

I don’t know honestly if I should celebrate my calmness and relaxation or should I curse myself for losing the coping method. I need to find another… somehow.

I guess I don’t miss panic attacks but it is hard to balance it all. Some anxiety is kind of a force that for me was propelling me forward. Now I just want to relax and chill all the timee. Sit there on the patio comfortably with beverage and just take the nature in. That doesn’t work good for me in the long run I feel.

  • Boomkop3@reddthat.comEnglish
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    10 days ago

    You should probably see a doctor about this issue. I’m neurodivergent too, and the one time I had cannabis it messed me up too.

    I cannot recommend the stuff, no matter how many junkies say it doesn’t hurt.

    • ProgrammingSocks@pawb.socialEnglish
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      9 days ago

      Most people don’t have that experience. I’m AuDHD and I really like weed, personally. But I found it demotivated me, so I decided to quit it, and I cold turkey put it down about a month ago. When I start working again, I’ll probably start smoking again because it helps with the day-to-day stressors that cause me an undue amount of, well, chronic anxiety.

      You know what really messed me up? Vyvanse. I got some really intense anxiety, even after being on it for a few months. Decided it wasn’t for me.

      • Boomkop3@reddthat.comEnglish
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        9 days ago

        Ye, not everyone has the same response. But the usual marketing telling people it’s safe is simply misleading.

        Vyvanse I’ve not had before. No branded medication at all, really. My healthcare provider got me on methylphenidate for a while, it’s basically a weaker version of lisdexamfetamine. (aka vyvanse). It did nothing for me :/

        Good thing you listen to your body, and deciding for yourself. well done!