i get the feeling that she became that way, not that she was always that way. she is obviously not as lucid now as she seemed in the past. the parts of the book where she describes forced stints in rehab and mental health clinics, and being forced to take lithium, those were particularly shocking. she is severely traumatized and if all accounts in the book are accurate i would not be surprised if she’s suffered irreparable damage/will never be the same person again. it’s really sad