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terminal sleep deprivation increases hatred for the bourgeoisie

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Cake day: June 5th, 2026

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  • Thanks for the concern comrade. It just so happens I was coming home from vacation today (by car) and drunk 4x the amount of coffee I normally drink (4 times 0 is still 0, but I’ll say it’s 1 coffee a day for maths sake). I don’t think it’ll be too hard to fall asleep tonight, given the 7 hour drive and all. Caffeine generally doesn’t affect my ability (or lack thereof) to fall asleep. I don’t take anything for sleep, if you are wondering. Given I am properly home now (and don’t have to wake up at 9 am) I should be able to get plenty of sleep (though from experience just getting that sleep doesn’t mean I’ll feel well rested in the slightest.)

    Will try to implement the advice too.




  • Being raised like I’m neurotypical and expected to act like it means I’ve learned to take BS from people most of the time. Here everyone who doesn’t have a “lower function” (can’t find another way to word this, sorry) variant of autism has nothing at all, so I just had to take everything with 0 support. At times it definetly makes me a bit callous, but I generally tend to be quite polite (mostly to complete strangers).


  • No drinking is a fantasy, I wish I could find someone like that but I’ve settled on them drinking in moderation. I think “I only drink at parties” means they do, then get plastered chugging vodka and I’m the one left to babysit them, because I’m the only sober one there. Not like this has happened to me twice or anything. With groups of 5 at once. Seriously, do rich people have no self control?






  • CW: mention of death, suicide, drug use, etc.

    awful stuff

    Is it unrealisic to want someone who doesn’t drink, smoke, or do anything else as a potential partner? Living in a country where those things are the norm, and you are seen as weak for not doing them makes it extremely difficult to find anyone at all. At times I feel like he only person in all of the balkans who doesn’t drink. I’d rather die of natural causes than smoke, and would rather kill myself than vape. Not that I want to die in the slightest, but I find death preferable to drug use. I wish I could say that “I let people enjoy things”, but I’m a serial hater, whether it be gatekeeping bands, or hating the bourgeoisie. I think I only brcame straight edge due to being traumatized by other peoples drug use (something that I’m not gonna get into now). To me it like a very individualist “solution” to drug use. I can’t help but put people down for whatever they do (finding out someone smokes instantly makes me think less of them), and that is a personal failing that is going to take some time to rectify. Seeing someone you love resorting to self medication instead of pursuing help is a horrible thing to see. There are definetly easier ways to learn not to hang out with the bourgeoisie than traumatising yourself. But this is definetly getting in the territory of self-pity, so it’s best to leave this rant here.

    Is it an autism thing or a writing essay thing to seperate rants into paragraphs?