Just visited my home country (EU) and I am now returning to my expat country (US) and a wave of depression hit me.
I never considered myself to be very attached to my family or my country but after three years and now finally coming back to visit, last night I was extremely depressed. I created an overall good life for myself in the US and I don’t think I would ever see myself coming back to the EU to live permanently, but now I am at the airport leaving and I can’t help but feel an overwhelming sadness.
I’m wondering what experiences other people had in regards to this. Does it get easier? And is leaving after visiting always this sad?
Hard?
No.
Excruciatingly painful and awkward?
Yes.
For me, however, it’s the opposite. I have difficulty in returning to my home country, not leaving it. Frankly, I never want to return to my home country other than for a few weeks to visit family.
After ten years in Spain, I no longer belong in the US.
It’s where I was born but it is no longer my home.
Life in the US is a terrible way to live. The food culture, the driving culture, the work culture, the superficiality, the political vitriol, the racial obsession. Pretty much everything sucks except for the scenery.